I am up past midnight... welcoming in the 28th. The 9th anniversary of my beautiful baby girls birth day. Payton would be 9 years old today. The memories of the eve of her birth are still so fresh in my mind, that at moments it feels like only yesterday. With everything we have been experiencing lately, the memories seem to be even clearer lately. Years past, the anticipation of Payton's birthday felt in my heart much different than it has this year. I've been a little distracted.... a little focused.
But tomorrow.... will be a day set aside just for you sweet baby girl. You are not here for us to throw you a big 9th birthday party, but we are setting the day aside to honor your memory, celebrate your life and to feel the love we have solely for you, our precious little one. I write little one and my mind immediately wonders.... who are you in heaven? I'll have to wait till I see you there to know. We love you baby girl, our Love Bug. You are so missed. You are never far from our hearts and our continued thoughts. You will always be missed, never replaced and always cherished.
This past week your little sister, Avery and I have been going through tubs of clothing getting ready for your other little sister's birth. Avery asked me with great excitement if we could go through your tub of clothing I've saved. As we explored, oohed and awed over every little thing in your box, the one thing that impressed Avery the most were your tiny, delicate socks. She asked me, "Mommy were Payton's feet really that tiny"? I showed her the foot mold we made of you the night you went to be with Jesus, she was able to see a 3-d version of your feet and see just how tiny they really were.
Even I.... had almost forgotten.
So I look at this photo your father took of the two of you and I am so touched and reminded by how one tiny set of feet could make such an enormous impression on our hearts and lives. Our hearts will forever be impressed with your life... your presence, precious daughter.
We love and miss you.
Happy 9th Birthday Payton Hadley.
4 comments:
Heather,
Hi Sweetie, how are things going? I couldn't sleep, so read your blog.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAYTON..9YRS OLD.
I bet her celebration in heaven is better than we could imagine.
So I see you are having a girl, how exciting! She will be so lucky to be in such a wonderful family.
Love and Miss all of You,
Aunt Sue & Family
Happy Birthday Payton! I LOVE that picture of her tiny foot, it is amazing how tiny it is. What a precious little gift.
Beautifully written, Heather. And Happy Birthday Payton! You and your family are on my heart today... fitting that it is Memorial Day, a day set apart for you to remember your sweet daughter. Love, Wendy
Thank you Aunt Sue, Brenda and Wendy!
I appreciate you reading the post and above all acknowledging and remembering our sweet Payton. It was a good day, yesterday. Much love to you all. Heather
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